{Running on Fumes}

Doesn’t it kill you when you just get excited about a new blog you’re reading, or a fun new internet personality who updates regularly, and you really feel like you’ve got a good thing going, and then suddenly BAM!  The blogger announces he or she will be taking a brief hiatus for “personal reasons” or to reevaluate priorities or some equally open-ended excuse?

It kills me.

Which is why it kills me to have to do it to you today…

…not really.  I wouldn’t do something that I hate having done to myself.

But I do think there are going to be some changes happening around here—just temporarily.  I don’t have quite enough brain matter to go around right now, it seems.  Today, after turning in my last paper of the semester, I felt total relief, but the lousy kind of relief laced with dread, because I know it’s not even close to being over yet—I still have two weeks of classes, plus final exams, and that’s only this semester.  Who knows how many I’ll have left before I escape the collegiate crap-hole with my ridiculous piece of paper graduate?  I don’t even want to think about it.

I disliked college before I moved to Canada, and I dislike it just as much now—or maybe worse, because I have to trek from the parking lot to the campus in snow and hurricane-force wind, which is just awful.  At any rate, I am a bad example to all the kiddies out there because my advice is to graduate from high school and then run—don’t walk—as far away as humanly possible from any sort of institutionalised education from there on out.  College never did a thing for me but break my spirit and suck dry the pockets of those who cared enough to keep me enrolled.

Like I said…I may not be the best example for your children.

In case you couldn’t tell, I’m feeling a bit blue these days.  I think it’s a combination of missing home, missing green grass, missing my days of freedom, and missing a piece of my heart.  Something’s just…missing inside me.  {Or maybe I’m just suffering from depression; all the good bloggers do, and I always did want to be one of the good bloggers…}  I am consummately burnt out, but there’s no time for that—I still have three weeks to survive.  I need to prepare myself for the barrage of the upcoming month, because the ride’s not over yet, and it’s foolish to be running on empty during times like these.

Red is BlueI either need to snap out of it, or get myself some heavy sedatives—I can’t keep living like this.

Thus, since my brain is already functioning at ultra-too-full capacity, I am sorry to announce that I will temporarily be cutting down my time online.  I hate to do it—I hate missing even one day on the internet, but it has to be.

And when something has to be, there’s nothing more to be done than simply to do it.  A wiser version of myself said that once upon a time (who am I kidding—wise people have been saying it for ages; I’m nothing special).

queeniekeepcalmcarryonposterImage from here, though I wish I could say it’s from my own house.  I need one of these posters.

So I’m sorry if you don’t see my comments on your blogs as frequently as normal.  I’ll do my best to keep calm and carry on and post five days a week.

About Camille

I'm Camille. I have a butt-chin. I live in Canada. I was born in Arizona. I like Diet Dr. Pepper. Hello. You can find me on Twitter @archiveslives, Facebook at facebook.com/archivesofourlives, instagram at ArchivesLives, and elsewhere.
This entry was posted in blogger finger, Cutting Back, mediocrity, my edjumacation and me, sad things and tagged , . Bookmark the permalink.

29 Responses to {Running on Fumes}

  1. Cristin says:

    When I have felt like blogging and looking at blogs is a responsibility, not something I do for fun, I have stopped and re-evaluated why I do what I do. I have had to decide that I write my blog for ME (sound selfish, huh?) and that this isn’t my job. Anyway, I’ll miss you. Good luck with school.

  2. anonymous says:

    i hope you get out of your slump. i’ve been feeling a little burnt out myself lately. i think it’s just the time of year- longing for summer and freedom.

  3. Casey says:

    I’m sorry you’re in a funk. I’ve gotten burned out from blogging on more than one occasion. I always take a step back for awhile and so far, I’ve still wanted to go back. I’m with Cristin, it shouldn’t feel like a chore or a burden.

  4. Good for you, though I’ll miss any absence it may cause…

    I have a yellow one of those posters in my house. It actually really does help.

  5. Anonymous says:

    I support you 100%. I’m sorry you’re so burnt on. Hang in there…

  6. raygon says:

    OH! I will miss your comments. They are often my favorite ones.

    Hopefully the end of the semester and a little sun will cheer you up.

  7. DeAnna says:

    My college experience was far different, I loved every minute of it (except for my accounting class hated that instructor), mind you then I was single, not even a hint of a boyfriend, let alone a husband and really didn’t have a care…compared to life now. I will miss your comments, but as long as it keeps you bloggin all the power to you. And I agree hopefully the sun will give you that added Spring cheer…if you can call it that. Good luck with school!

  8. Chloe says:

    I understand what you mean. I’ve been through this too. So I support your decision, though I’ll miss a lot your comments…
    Cheer up! and good luck with your final exams!

    http://chloe86.wordpress.com

  9. Brian says:

    If it’s something i said, or did, please let me know.
    If it’s being invited, then uninvited from my angry blog, please let me know. After some thought, i thought, it wasn’t something You’d want to read.

  10. Brian says:

    I’m so paranoid about hurting people.
    I’m going to re-invite you.
    If You don’t want it, reject it.
    You’re the only fam i thought could handle it.
    School’s great man. If i had the money i’d stay in school forever.

    Oh, and yeah, take it from a dumbass, my Dad, “don’t be depressed”. Sounds like a light switch.

  11. Brian says:

    Thanks for listing nice blog in your list, by the way. For a minute, i felt like i had a friend.

  12. Joel says:

    No worries. Been there plenty of times…

  13. Maureen says:

    School is so much better than work, but I know that sometimes it can be a lot more stressful. I say, use the internet/blog/comment when you feel like it and when you don’t, don’t. That’s what I do. Good luck with the rest of the semester.

  14. anna says:

    “Bless Camille that she will have an increase in brain matter…”

  15. Hannah says:

    Your blog will always be here! Do what you got to do and hurry back :) Good luck with all your schooling! I sometimes envy those that are going to school and working hard for a good job, not that I don’t love just being a mom I just wish sometimes there was something more I could do. So keep on! Keep on my friend! O and I’m coming to Canada in July!!!

  16. Lauren says:

    Ooo I have that poster. I should get you one. Hopefully your hiatus gives you the rest you need.

    Can we email back and forth and and can I help you plan this blog party?

  17. Heather says:

    It must be something in the air??? Winter being “almost” over and Spring right around the corner….that’s my excuse and I’m sticking to it!!!
    Thanks for stopping by my blog…..I hope you will at least still be posting???

  18. jacque says:

    Dear Camille,

    I totally understand how you feel! I’m kinda going through the same thing right now and I just feel… BLAH! Hopefully your trip home to Arizona will raise your spirits and get you out of the blahs. Until then… just remember you have a great husband who loves you and is there to help take care of you.

  19. Christal says:

    I love that poster it helps me plus its spring break have a blast and then when you get back home it will all be much better !! You are awesome and your blog is awesome its hard sometimes in real life never mind in finding something to write everyday like you do thats hard but you do an amazing job everytime. I’ve missed so many posts over my crazy weekend but hope you have a great break!!

  20. HeatherPride says:

    Oh girl, I’m sorry to hear you’re going through a rough patch. I used to get so stressed out over posting regularly – and now I let it evolve more organically. I hate feeling blog pressure – we all have enough real pressure in our lives, eh? So don’t worry, we’ll still be here when you come back. Step away, and breathe…..

    Loves.

  21. Granmama says:

    You can make decisions that will work for you. I trust you to use your intuition to guide you. I love who you are and want you to know that you belong here. We can’t wait for you to come and thaw out. We will go to My Big Fat Greek Restaurant to celebrate your successful completion of a tough semester. Know that somewhere out there under that same bright star someone is thinking of you and wishing you well.
    Te amo————-
    La Abuellala de Preston

  22. ann marie says:

    I was seriously talking with my friend about this today! Too weird.
    I think you are fun, and your blog is fun.. But like everyone else has said.. take a break.. if it’s a day..or week or month.. But PLEASE come back! Your fun to read.

  23. Pingback: None of This Means Anything Except Everything | Archives of Our Lives

  24. EverybodyNose says:

    Do whatever you need to girl.
    You do what’s best for you!
    I’ll just grin and bear it!

  25. Deemarie says:

    Take the time you need… You know I’m doing it too!! When you’re back, we will be too!!!

  26. Pingback: This is the Part Where I Get Over Myself and Stop Being Depressed. | Archives of Our Lives

  27. Pingback: Time Flies When You’re Trying to Cheer Up. | Archives of Our Lives

  28. Pingback: Happy Birthday, Canada. | Archives of Our Lives

  29. Pingback: Archives of Our Lives » Chipper

Comments are closed.