Happy Thanksgiving back.

The first year I missed Thanksgiving with my huge crazy extended family was in 2005. I’d moved to Canada two months earlier to embark on the adventure of a lifetime. I’d just turned 19. I was in college. My little future was bright. Shiny. It made me sad to miss Thanksgiving, but my mom sent me pictures and I knew I’d be there the next year.

The year after that I was in Arizona for Thanksgiving but my family decided to spend it in individual families rather than the usual hullabaloo. It was okay though because I’d be there the next year.

Only I wasn’t.

The next year, a month after I married Poor Kyle and moved to Canada, my American family celebrated Thanksgiving without me. Hullabaloo-style.

Missing Thanksgiving made me sad.

That was four Thanksgivings ago, back when I had nothing better to do with my life than sit around feeling sad about missing Thanksgiving with my family.

I guess I thought I would stop missing them after while. Once I got busier. With more to distract me from my homesickness.

And while it’s true that I’m busier now than ever before—and busy with things that (generally) make me happy—I was wrong about the other.

Missing the hullabaloo Thanksgiving never gets easier. I’ve been out of the familial loop for 7 Thanksgivings now, and I feel just as sad about that fact today as I did in 2005.

Only difference is that in 2005 I had a bright shiny future to distract me.

This year I have nothing.

About Camille

I'm Camille. I have a butt-chin. I live in Canada. I was born in Arizona. I like Diet Dr. Pepper. Hello. You can find me on Twitter @archiveslives, Facebook at facebook.com/archivesofourlives, instagram at ArchivesLives, and elsewhere.
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7 Responses to Happy Thanksgiving back.

  1. Alicia says:

    That sucks. Maybe next year you need to be the creater of your own hullabaloo holiday. Invite the whole block!

  2. Ros says:

    But you have Poor Kyle to distract you! Sending virtual hugs to Canada! xxx

  3. Christal says:

    Aww sad ………happy thanksgiving even if your not there
    And ps cafe rio great falls right in the mall parking lot so so good! ttys

  4. You still have a bright shiny future! Don’t give up yet!

  5. CaJoh says:

    We had to delay our Thanksgiving and have it on the following Sunday. That’s what I get for having my wife’s Birthday on black Friday. You should celebrate anyway (There’s no reason why you can’t have a big feast… even in Canada).

  6. Marilyn says:

    Well darn! I feel bad for you! I kind know how you feel. I spent three Christmases in a row with my in-laws in England and missed my family so much. The first year back i missed Christmas in England. Now that’s been a few years I’m excited to have Christmas in england again. Who knows, maybe you’ll miss christmas in Canada next time you are in az.

  7. Alaina says:

    I agree with Sarah! You still do have a bright and shiny future ahead of you! Don’t give up hope on that! I know it sucks missing out on family traditions, but maybe you and Poor Kyle can start ones of your own. I know it won’t be the same but at least it’s better than nothing, right?

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