Manageable After All

I drove from Canada to Arizona all by myself.

I have done it several times before, but every time I go, I question whether or not I will really be able to make it. I mean, that’s a long way to drive all by oneself (it took me 22 hours of driving time in the space of two days). What if my contact lenses don’t work for such long hours of driving? What if one pops out? What if I get drowsy and fall asleep at the wheel? What if I don’t time it right and run out of fuel on the side of the deserted highway and flag down a crusty truck driver for help and instead of helping me he actually rapes me and beats me to death with a tire iron and then rapes my dead body and leaves me for the vultures who eat out my eyeballs with their greedy beaks?

What if I fail?

I mean, I don’t think I’m the type of person who would get myself into such predicaments. I’ve proven before that I can complete the drive and complete it well. But for some reason, every time I decide to make the trip again, all confidence gained from previous experience flies out the window and I am left a quivering ball of self-doubt rocking in the corner.

But that’s no way to live, so I always get up and get going.

And I’m never sorry I did:

Driving through the Rockies in Montana.

Sunrise in the hills south of Saint George (this is always the part of the trip where I start to feel like I’m coming home).

The new bypass bridge under construction on the Hoover Dam.

And one of the many rewards upon a safe arrival.

The occasional extended road trip all by oneself is good for the soul, I’m convinced of it. It buoys the spirit, boosts the confidence, and rekindles the knowledge that life is manageable after all.

See you on the flip flop.

About Camille

I'm Camille. I have a butt-chin. I live in Canada. I was born in Arizona. I like Diet Dr. Pepper. Hello. You can find me on Twitter @archiveslives, Facebook at, instagram at ArchivesLives, and elsewhere.
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13 Responses to Manageable After All

  1. the MIL says:

    I am so proud of you!!! Of course, this is the person who drove ALL THE WAY HOME FROM LAS VEGAS once without stopping except for gas and food and a 30 minute nap. So I believe in you too.
    BUT guess what happened that Tuesday…the day you turned around cuz of bad roads? My friend’s kids travelled that day from Utah, and spun out on Monida Pass, totalling their vehicle. Luckily, they are OK. We don’t want whatsisname Jetta to suffer the same fate.


  2. Tiffany says:

    Good job! Beautiful pictures too, by the way! Glad you made it safely.

  3. You can do it! Not only did you drive by yourself, but you managed to take pictures along the way.

  4. Granmama says:

    I am so glad you’re here. Thanks for helping with ACXTIVITY DAY, R.S. lesson. purses, and “P”. I love that you are here and wish you could be here always with your hubby.

  5. Chloe says:

    I’m so glad you could do it :)
    Now, enjoy with your family!!
    You deserve it!!

  6. That looks like an amazing journey – I drove from VA to Michigan last fall to visit family and I thought *that* was a long trip to take alone. And I have your exact same thoughts about helpful truck drivers! Now you’re making me want to take a road trip – I can’t wait to read more about your journey!

  7. whitney says:

    AFter having a kid, being alone in a car is a treat. Glad you made it safe!

  8. Maple says:

    I remember one time on a family trip from basically Washington to Central Oregon, our minivan broke down in the middle of nowhere. And this was in the age where cell phones were just becoming popular, so we had no cell coverage. Luckily, a truck driver came by about 15 minutes after we broke down – he helped us and wasn’t crusty at all. He even had a nice little dog with him – he picked up my Dad and drove him to down to get a tow truck. Apparently there was a smallish city not far from where we were.
    Now the tow trucker driver…he was a crusty juggler if I ever did see one. Blegh!

  9. chelsie says:

    I am convinced that I need to try it the opposite way one of these days just to see if I can do it… I don’t know if I could either… But that long to oneself sounds glorious!

  10. Alexa Mae says:

    Yay! You’re here! So I never emailed you back and just spoke directly to Niki, but I want to have lunch with you. Email me and we can plan it. I’m glad you made it here safe, and the weather isn’t too bad, right?

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  12. Alaina says:

    Awesome photos, and good for you for doing that drive by yourself! That’s a lot better than I could do, definitely..

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